I started smoking at eighteen to rebel. Soon it became a pleasurable and relaxing habit. I enjoyed smoking! But I knew it wasn’t good for me. At thirty, I quit cold turkey. Lasted six months, enduring daily fits of nerves, restlessness, and even panic attacks. I decided that smoking was the lesser evil and took it up again. But I continued to worry about the long-term health effects. I tried nicotine gum and nicotine patches. Neither addressed my restlessness and fidgetiness. Trying to compensate, I used to go overboard with the gum and get the nicotine shakes. Ugly. When I started lighting up despite having a patch on my arm, I knew these products weren’t working for me. I went back to smoking. And worrying about the long-term health effects. Enter e-cigarettes. I found out about these amazing devices on the internet a few years after the nicotine gum/patch fiasco. Ordered one and started vaping. A miracle! This feels like smoking! It took me a while to get off my analog cigarettes completely, as I had to find the combination of device and juice that works best for me–a trial and error process that many new vapers go through–but now I’m sitting here with my Joye 510 + low-resistance atomizer + ECOvape Rich e-liquid, and I haven’t had a real cigarette in more than two years. I’m pretty sure I never will again. E-cigarettes have it all: the nicotine, the business of refilling the e-cig, the little pouch of kit to carry around with me, the pleasure of leaning back and blowing clouds of smoke. Without the long-term health impact of tar and other carcinogens. I love smoking. I mean vaping. And I will never quit. Nor am I trying to taper my nicotine consumption. I am a happy user of high-nicotine liquid and plan to stay that way. Let me explain. I believe that nicotine makes me a stabler, calmer, nicer person. It regulates my anxiety issues and just plain makes me feel better. It may be a vice but so what? In this world vices are a near-universal coping strategy. Some people drink coffee, some people drink alcohol, some eat chocolate. I vape nicotine. My habit harms no one, including me, and contributes to the economy. Regulate my US suppliers out of business, and I’ll just switch to buying direct from China.